“But I have trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, because he has dealt bountifully with me.” (Psalm 13:5-6)
Eight years ago we had just had our first child, Isaiah. It was an exciting time for my wife and I. He was healthy, labor and delivery went well. We were overjoyed to be new parents. After a week figuring out the new parenting thing, we put him down and were talking when we looked over at him and he was blue. After a scramble, a 911 call, and a frantic ambulance ride, we found ourselves in Pediatric ICU with baby hooked up to monitors and oxygen tubes and no idea what was going on.
Looking at him lying there in the bed, I was struck with how many times I had said to people, “this child is a gift from God, who didn’t belong to us, and it was my job to raise him.” I was hit with the reality of having to determine whether I actually believed what I said, or whether it just sounded good.
In Psalm 13 we see the David start off the Psalm on an ominous note. He says, “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?” (Psalm 13:1). He's obviously at a point of deep distress. Feelings of exacerbation are washing over him, looking for solace in the Lord, and feeling like God has left him. We don’t know the exact dynamics behind this Psalm, but we see David do something that we all have the ability to do. We see his decision to trust in the midst of feelings of frustration. In the final two verses of the Psalm, he makes a decision to look at God’s track record, not his current circumstances. He decides to trust God even though he may feel like he is out of faith.
At times we all have to make that decision. These past two years have brought many of us to that point. We look around and feel that everything is falling apart, yet if we claim to know Jesus, we must decide that we are going to look at what he has done, his track record, and praise Him.
Question: How are you choosing to react to your feelings of disappointment or frustration?
Challenge: Choose to praise Him today for who He is, regardless of what you might be going through. He is good and worthy of praise.
Prayer: Lord help my feelings to not drive my praise. Give me the faith to choose to praise you today, whatever may come my way.
Luke Sawyer -- BC Staff