Upon becoming a mother, I struggled with fear as never before. My fear was centered on the safety of my children, but I was not even conscious of it during the daytime hours. However, when my husband was on a road trip and darkness fell, my imagination went crazy!
I managed to keep my thoughts under control during the evening but there were many nights when I awoke suddenly to find myself covered with sweat and filled with anxiety! The questions assailed me: Did I wake up because I heard a noise? Is someone in the house? Are those footsteps downstairs? You get the picture. The fear consumed me at that moment, and I was compelled to get up and check on the children and be sure the house was secure. The worst part of the ordeal was my inability to go back to sleep as my thoughts were still on a rampage even if I was physically in bed. I simply could not find peace in that moment.
As I pursued an answer to this exhausting problem, I realized that the daytime hours were not difficult because of the light. The darkness aroused the fear. I found a way to remove that darkness without the use of a nightlight. There are many references in the Bible that reminded me that God is light. Where He is, darkness cannot exist!
In the darkest of places, a very small flashlight brings great comfort. In fact, the first step in wilderness survival is to build a fire. There are many practical reasons for this but among them is the truth that sitting by light in dark surroundings will arouse feelings of well-being and comfort. The Light from God’s Word is better than any floodlight or bonfire!
I began sleeping with my Bible opened to a comforting passage of scripture and placed it on the pillow next to me. When I awakened in the night, the “light” was waiting for me and my fear was immediately eased. This strategy helped me develop a habit of meditating on God’s Word in the most difficult moments of life.